"There is a God..."

"Plant a seed and see what comes out of the ground.

Find the heartbeat on your baby's ultrasound.
In a few years hear him laughing,
don't it sound like a song?
There is a God, how much proof do you need?"

My precious little man is proof to me that there is a higher being. How did I come to deserve someone so special? :o)

Sleeping comes in small doses around my house these days, but when I am able to "sleep, perchance to dream," my dreams are straight out of an acid-trip! I guess it's because I never really get into that lovely period of deep sleep anymore, and rather spend what little time I do sleep in the R.E.M period, where most dreaming takes place. Well, I had a pretty rough dream last night. Have you ever had a dream that feels SO real, and when you wake up from it, you feel compelled to drop to your knees thanking God that it really was just a dream? I had one of those last night. All I will say is I miss my husband. It's only been a week, how can I be handling this so poorly? Before Rick and I got married, we spent a lot of time apart. Our colleges were separated by a nearly two hour drive, so we only saw each other on the weekends, and sometimes not even then. Then, when we moved in together and got married, he went to Ft. Sill and then Ft. Lee, so we were apart for five months. We did see each other periodically when I would travel to Virginia for a few days, but we still lived away from each other. I should be used to this by now, but after 5 1/2 years together, I feel that it's only getting harder each time we have to face a separation. And now we have our precious Fischer. I have to be even stronger now, for his sake. Well, if there were ever a reason to not feel sorry for myself, he is the one.

I can't believe how fast he is growing! Everyone tells you that, and I am doing my darndest to enjoy every single second I have with him, no matter if he's wailing or smiling. Which, by the way, he is smiling SO much now! I love it! When he smiles, it is the most amazing, perfect, better-than-chocolate-and-cheesecake-combined feeling in the world! I can't wait to hear him laugh, I know it will be just as perfect.

Onto fashion! :o)
I LOVE when high-end designers create ready-to-wear lines for stores that are more accessible to the general public. This gives us fashionistas who lack a bankfull of unlimited funds more unique and stylish options, yet we are still able to feel fashion-forward (and pretty dadgum special) because we're wearing Matthew Williamson, for example. Matthew Williamson created a tropical inspired line for H&M last spring that was an absolute HIT. I was fortunate enough to snag this special number before they sold out:


That's supermodel Helena Christensen wearing it! Now if you attempt to buy this dress on ebay (my go-to when a particular item I want is sold out) you will pay upwards of twice it's H&M price tag! This is something I'm facing right now for another item I'm pining after; a Zac Posen (from Target!) dress. I saw it yesterday in the store, and had it been available in a size other than an XS or an XL, it would currently be hanging in my closet. Check it out:
It's sold out online, and has been clearanced in the store. Down to $17.50!! Imagine my dismay, however upon finding it on ebay being sold with a starting bid of $69.99! One criminally insane seller is asking $89.99!!! Who are these people?! There is one I found with a starting bid of $19.99, so we will see about that one. All the other sellers asking above that need to be committed!

In the mean-time, here's some Lily Pulitzer-esque sandals available at Target under the brand name "Miss Trish." They are brightly colored, feminine, and perfect for summer. When I saw the pink and green together, I knew they were meant to be mine. :o)
If you have 25 smackaroos, they can be yours, too! Head on over to Target and pick 'em up. It's not like you weren't planning a trip there anyway. Who doesn't LOVE Target?! I think I once joined a facebook group called, "I would get married in Target." Gah, I love that place!

Till next time! :o)

"Oh, you make me smile..."

"Don't know how I lived without you 'Cause every time that I get around you I see the best of me inside your eyes You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed Sing like bird, dizzy in my head Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe Shine like gold, buzz like a bee Just the thought of you can drive me wild Oh, you make me smile..."

I just love the Uncle Kracker song, "Smile." While I was pregnant with Fischer, I would hear it on the radio while I was driving to and from work, which was quite a commute! It made me think of how much he had already made me smile (from the first time I saw him on an ultrasound), to how much he would make me smile once he arrived. And boy was I RIGHT! That song epitomizes my love and devotion to him. There really is nothing like being a mom. :o)

Well, I've decided to start this blog for a few reasons. 1) Since I have become an army wife, my husband's career has taken us far from our family and friends. By sharing in this blog, I feel that I'll be able to connect with them even though I'm displaced out here in the midwest. 2) We are preparing for deployment (our first) and this will be a way for me to distract myself from that. 3) I'm going to share some things I really love and care about: my precious little one and my love affair with shopping! :o)

Today has been very low-key. I'm feeling a little heartsick because Rick left late last night (or shall I say early morning; 1 a.m.) for NTC at Ft. Iriwn. Fischer and I will be on our own for the next month and I'm nervous, sad, and missing him already. While most of Fischer's care is provided for by moi, Rick is still a very involved dad. I know it's going to be so hard on him to be away from his little "toothless chunk" for a month. But, I'm going to be taking a picture of the little guy everyday and emailing it to him so that he doesn't miss out. He came up with that idea; neat, huh? :o)

So I've been perusing the internet a lot lately looking for some new clothes since I'm ready to get back into pre-maternity wear. By the way, I'm glad that's mostly over with! Finding cute clothing to fit over a burgeoning belly (or what I lovingly dubbed, my "beach ball belly") is really tough! Heidi Klum did start a line at Motherhood Maternity with some nice styles, but I still felt ginormous in most of her designs. Someone who can really pull off looking great pregnant is Bethenny Frankel from the Real Housewives of NYC, and her own new show, Bethenny Getting Married. I've been watching her progress through pregnancy on her show and I'm constantly saying, "Geez, she looks fab!" Of course, she is also the creator of "Skinny Girl" cocktails and has a book titled "Naturally Thin." Maybe already being a waif helps matters some. :o)

Anyway, here are my finds of the day.Look at this adorable striped tunic from my favorite store, Forever 21! This is perfect for summer, whether you're vacationing on the coast, or heading to an outdoor barbecue. The colors and design are more nautical in nature and I would LOVE to pair this with some red wedges that are currently sitting on my shoe shelf, and don it to celebrate our Nation's Birthday! However, seeing as how I just found it today, I don't think it will arrive in time. ;o)

And in following with this same patriotic color palette, I share with you what will be my newest swim suit! This retro inspired polka-dot number from ModCloth is so cool in its vintage appeal. Having a baby really does do a number on your body, namely your midsection. While I am making an effort to help with that, I am no longer sad over feeling the necessity in a one-piece swimsuit. I mean, I would RATHER wear this than a 2-piece suit anyway! Yay, mommies rejoice!! :o)

Well, I better sign off. My little man is opening those, what appear to be, brown eyes. Gotta tend to him!

Ciao for now!